Corpsie's Fairytale

Evolution? Pfft. What a Scam.

2012-02-19T18:24:00.000-08:00

Why People Believe in Evolution

Oh my. I just can't wrap my head around this. Brainwashing? Intimidation? It's not Scientific Law? WOW. It's not like religion brainwashes people. And it's not like religion uses intimidation (Oh you mean the threat of hell if you don't follow a specific set of rules written by other men [who hold these rules over other men to control their lives] that have no proven truth? That's not intimidating at all.) I just love how they put Theory in quotation marks. We all know that the Bible is the word of "God". And by God I mean men.

Things I need to say.

2012-02-18T22:38:00.000-08:00

Justin, you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. I know I say that a lot, but I mean it. But I feel like I don't say other things enough. Like how much I appreciate you. You do a lot for me. And I do notice. You always make me smile and at least try to pull me out of my weird moods. You always make me feel like I can do anything. You always try to support all my interests. Sometimes I don't think I deserve you and that you can do better. But then I realize nobody could ever love you more than I do, because I love you unconditionally. I love you when you are being a butthead and when you are in bad moods. I love you when you are upset or sad, or grumpy. So thank you for everything. Thank you for loving me no matter what and for always showing me that you care.

Jan 30, 2012-Anxiety and Organization

2012-01-30T11:56:00.000-08:00

Have you ever had the feeling that you were dying? And that no matter how hard you tried you couldn't escape the feeling of suffocation? You have no idea what you are thinking because you are thinking about too many things at once. Your mind is no longer your own. And when you finally manage to get a hold of your own mind, all you can think about is the horrible ways you can be killed at that moment. Now imagine all of this going on while you are sitting in class. No matter how hard you try to concentrate all you can think of is death. Your death, or the death of someone you care about, or even the death of a total stranger. Now imagine that this happens to you at least 3 times a week. You have no way to stop it. No way to ease it. You just have to deal with it and hope that you can manage to continue with whatever you were doing. You can't just walk away from it or shut it out. It's there and all you can do is yield to it and hope it passes quickly. This is what I deal with.

I'm not exactly sure how it's triggered. Sometimes I may see a picture of dead body, or a car accident, or roadkill. But most of the time I see absolutely nothing like that. I'm just having a normal day when I suddenly get hit by a sense of dread. Then panic. My chest gets tight and I can't breath and it's hard to talk. I think I've gotten pretty good at hiding it though. I mean how do I explain to someone what's wrong with me? "Oh don't mind me it's just an anxiety attack and I feel like I can't breath". Everyone wants answers, but I can't explain what is going on in my head so I don't say anything.

But I guess that's what I'm doing now. Explaining it to whoever reads this. Mainly Justin. This is all for him. He needs to know. And he wants me to write more so I guess I'm killing two birds with one stone.

But I think writing this is actually helping. It's helping me sort out my thoughts. If you know me, you know I hate being disorganized. I try to so hard to keep all my things tidy and neat, but I can't do that with my thoughts. I wish everything in my head could like the notes I take in class. Neat, categorized, easy to read. But they aren't and it drives me fucking nuts. I want to pull out my hair and clear my mind of everything. Then organize all of my thoughts into categories so they aren't a jumbled mess all knotted together. But I can't. No matter how hard I try. I just can't. So instead I organize our room. I fix the bed, or clean off my desk. I pick up anything off the floor. However there are those occasions when there is nothing for me to organize or there is something stopping me from it. Then I panic. Then I start scratching myself and pulling my hair.

Justin, I need you to understand this. When I clean, or need to fix the bed, it all manifests in my head. My head is such a mess, all I can do is fix the room. Or my hair. Or my clothes. Or organize everything on my computer.

I need you to let me do all of this without getting mad at me. It's so hard for me to be happy with my life when I don't even understand what's going on in my own head. But Justin, you need to know that I want a life with you more than anything. I want to make you happy. I want to do everything right. But at the same time, I need to do certain things for myself. I want to make myself a better person for you. I want to understand myself, so I can be a better a wife. So it's easier for us to communicate. I need time to sort out my thoughts and understand them. I can't make you understand them, if I don't even understand them.

Do you remember what the loft looked like when we moved in? It was a mess. Junk on top of junk, on top of more junk. We couldn't tell what was garbage and what was actually worth anything. That's how my head looks. It full of irrational fears and worries, with pictures of car accidents engraved into my skull. But there's nowhere to put them, so I just have to shove them aside to make room for all the relevant thoughts and emotions I have. I need to make room for everything. But it's going to take a little time.

Monotonous

2012-01-26T12:23:00.000-08:00

How many interesting facts fail to be converted into fertile discoveries because their first observers regard them as natural and ordinary things! . . . It is strange to see how the populace, which nourishes its imagination with tales of witches or saints, mysterious events and extraordinary occur-rences, disdains the world around it as commonplace, monotonous and prosaic, without suspecting that at bottom it is all secret, mystery, and marvel.

Kalat, James W. (2010-02-10). Biological Psychology, 10th Edition (Kindle Locations 1712-1715). Cengage Learning. Kindle Edition.

A few awesome videos

2012-01-18T12:18:00.000-08:00

Zach Wahls Speaks About Family
Confronting Life
Westboro Baptist Church
Bill Maher Nails It

Our new year.

2012-01-01T01:27:00.000-08:00

Justin and I ended 2011 by adopting a gorgeous and sweet new kitty. We went to Petco where they were having an adoption event and saw her and fell in love. She was really shy but she was exactly what we wanted. No hesitation, we got her and brought her home. She is the sweetest cat. She's a Siamese and Snowshoe mix and she has gorgeous blue eyes that are slightly crossed haha. She is also cow-hocked and has a heart shape on her side. She came with the name Clover but we have changed it to Pixel. I'm so excited about her. She's been hiding most of time, but came out to explore not too long ago. Justin and I watched The Help while she gave herself a little tour around the room, then retreated to her hiding spot. Hopefully I can get a good picture of her eyes later. As for New Years resolution- I hate them. I never bother with them. But Justin really wants me to make one so here is mine- I will teach myself to belly dance. I would love to take classes but it's too expensive for us at the moment so I will learn on my own the best I can. I've already tuaght myself a few moves and it is quite a workout, so I'm hoping it will really get me into shape!

"You’re a smart girl."

2011-12-21T17:27:00.000-08:00

"How can you be so arrogant to think that there’s only one reality that you are able to see?" -American Horror Story

Places I want toTravel to

2011-12-19T00:37:00.000-08:00

Japan
Hitachi Park
Nikko
Pictures of Japan
Tokoyo
Living in Japan
Todorokikeikoku

France
Hell Cafe
Versailles
Queens Hamlet
Pictures

Other
Small Towns in Europe
Squares in Europe
Castles in Europe
Markiezenhof
Hamilton Pool
Salar de Uyuni
Greece
Lost Cities
Corfe Castle
Ireland
Winchester Mystery House
Terrifying Places
Bizzare Places
Canopy and Stars
Carmel-by-the-Sea

Halloween

2011-10-31T23:29:00.000-07:00

Went Trick-Or-Treating with Sarah, Caiti and her brother Spencer. Then met up with Jacquelynn and her friend Paige and went to Denny's. I was a fairy and got to wear my dreads and Justin was a nudist on strike.

My top favorite TV shows and anime

2011-10-31T07:12:00.000-07:00

Animated:
Corpse Princess
Elfen Lied
Inuyasha
Karin
School Days
Strawberry panic
Toradora
Wallflower
Vampire Knight
Venus Versus Virus
xxxholic
Zombie Loan

Other:
A Game of Thrones
American Horror Story
Heartland
Jane Eyre Mini Series
Lost
Switched at Birth
That 80s Show
The IT Crowd
The Saddle Club
Wives and Daughters Mini Series

Random cute Justin quotes

2011-10-10T20:52:00.000-07:00

"i love you more than you know or will ever know cause your mine forever:D" -Justin October 25, 2009
"I cant wait to see your face right before I kiss you in the ceremony." -Justin
"Your my little solar flare" -Justin

Silly Asses

2011-10-03T19:51:00.001-07:00

by Issac Asimov
1957 Columbia Publications, Inc.

Naron of the long-lived Rigellian race was the fourth of his line to keep the galactic records.

He had a large book which contained the list of the numerous races throughout the galaxies that had developed intelligence, and the much smaller book that listed those races that had reached maturity and had qualified for the Galactic Federation. In the first book, a number of those listed were crossed out; those that, for one reason or another, had failed. Misfortune, biochemical or biophysical shortcomings, social maladjustment took their toll. In the smaller book, however, no member listed had yet blanked out.

And now Naron, large and incredibly ancient, looked up as a messenger approached.

Naron, said the messenger. Great One!

Well, well, what is it? Less ceremony.

Another group of organisms has attained maturity.

Excellent. Excellent. They are coming up quickly now. Scarcely a year passes without a new one. And who are these?

The messenger gave the code number of the galaxy and the coordinates of the world within it.

Ah, yes, said Naron. I know the world. And in flowing script he noted it in the first book and transferred its name into the second, using, as was customary, the name by which the planet was known to the largest fraction of its populace. He wrote: Earth.

He said, These new creatures have set a record. No other group has passed from intelligence to maturity so quickly. No mistake, I hope.

None, sir, said the messenger.
They have attained to thermonuclear power, have they?
Yes, sir.

Well, thats the criterion. Naron chuckled. And soon their ships will probe out and contact the Federation.

Actually, Great One, said the messenger, reluctantly, the Observers tell us they have yet penetrated space.

Naron was astonished. Not at all? Not even a space station?
Not yet, sir.

But if they have thermonuclear power, where do they conduct the tests and detonations?

On their own planet, sir.

Naron rose to his full twenty feet of height and thundered, On their own planet?

Yes, sir.

Slowly Naron drew out his stylus and passed a line through the latest addition in the small book. It was an unprecedented act, but, then, Naron was very wise and could see the inevitable as well as anyone in the galaxy.

Silly asses, he muttered.

George Carlin

2011-09-28T06:31:00.001-07:00

"I would never want to be a member of a group whose symbol was a guy nailed to two pieces of wood."

"Here's another question I've been pondering -- what is all this shit about angels? Have you heard this? Three out of four people belive in angels. Are you fucking stupid? Has everybody lost their mind? You know what I think it is? I think it's a massive, collective, psychotic chemical flashback for all the drugs smoked, swallowed, shot, and absorbed rectally by all Americans from 1960 to 1990. Thirty years of street drugs will get you some fucking angels, my friend!"

"What about Goblins, huh? Doesn't anybody belive in Goblins? You never hear about this. Except on Halloween and then it's all negative shit. And what about Zombies? You never hear from Zombies! That's the trouble with Zombies, they're unreliable! I say if you're going to go for the Angel bullshit you might as well go for the Zombie package as well."

George Orwell

2011-09-28T06:28:00.001-07:00

"All animals are equal but some animals are more equal than others."

"If both the past and the external world exist only in the mind, and if the mind itself is controllable – what then?"

"War is a way of shattering to pieces, or pouring into the stratosphere, or sinking in the depths of the sea, materials which might otherwise be used to make the masses too comfortable, and hence, in the long run, too intelligent."

"The quickest way of ending a war is to lose it."

"Who controls the past controls the future. Who controls the present controls the past."

"If people cannot write well, they cannot think well, and if they cannot think well, others will do their thinking for them."

"If you want to imagine the future, imagine a boot stamping on a human face forever."

"The object of persecution is persecution. The object of torture is torture. The object of power is power."

Oscar Wilde-phrases and philosiphies for the use of the young

2011-09-28T06:23:00.001-07:00

The first duty in life is to be as artificial as possible. What the second duty is no one has as yet discovered.
Religions die when they are proved to be true. Science is the record of dead religions.
The well-bred contradict other people. The wise contradict themselves.
The old believe everything: the middle-aged suspect everything: the young know everything.
To love oneself is the beginning of a life-long romance.

The Little Prince

2011-09-28T06:18:00.001-07:00

"All grown-ups were children first. (But few remember it)."
"What are you doing here," he asked the drunkard...
"Drinking," replied the drunkard, with a gloomy expression.
"Why are you drinking?" the little prince asked.
"To forget," replied the drunkard.
"To forget what?" inquired the little prince, who was already feeling sorry for him.
"To forget that I'm ashamed," confessed the drunkard, hanging his head.
"What are you ashamed of?" inquired the little prince, who wanted to help.
"Of drinking!" concluded the drunkard...
"One sees clearly only with the heart. Anything essential is invisible to the eyes."
"... when someone blushes, doesn't that mean "yes"?

A poem

2011-09-28T06:13:00.000-07:00

I wish I could say I was the kind of child
who watched the moon from her window,
would turn toward it and wonder.
I never wondered. I read. Dark signs
that crawled toward the edge of the page.
It took me years to grow a heart
from paper and glue. All I had
was a flashlight, bright as the moon,
a white hole blazing beneath the sheets.

Random Quotes

2011-09-27T22:06:00.004-07:00

"Rain drops on roses, whiskers on kittens, bright copper kettles, warm woolen mittens, brown paper packages tied up with strings, these are a few of my favorite things."

“In a good bookroom you feel in some mysterious way that you are absorbing the wisdom contained in all the books through your skin, without even opening them.”-Mark Twain

"There is a theory which states that if ever for any reason anyone discovers what exactly the Universe is for and why it is here it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable. There is another that states that this has already happened."

"I just read a comment from a 2004 article by the ny times about the loneliest whale in the world. scientists have been tracking her since 1992 and they discovered the problem: she isn’t like any other baleen whale. unlike all whales, she doesn’t have friends. she doesn’t have a family. she doesn’t belong to any tribe, pack or gang. she doesn’t have a lover. she never had one. her songs come in groups of two to six calls, lasting for five to six seconds each. but her voice is unlike any other baleen whale. it is unique—while the rest of her kind communicate between 12 and 25hz, she sings at 51.75hz. you see, that’s precisely the problem. no other whales can hear her. every one of her desperate calls to communicate remains unanswered. each cry ignored. and with every lonely song, she becomes sadder and more frustrated, her notes going deeper in despair as the years go by."

"There are moments that mark your life, moments when you realize nothing will ever be the same again, and time is divided into two parts, before this and after this, now sometimes you can feel such a moment coming, that’s the test, or so I tell myself at times like these: strong people keep moving forward anyway, no matter what they’re gonna find."

"you can not fully read a book without being alone. But through this very solitude you become intimately involved with people whom you might never have met otherwise, either because they have been dead for centuries or because they spoke languages you cannot understand. And, nonetheless, they have become your closest friends, your wisest advisors, the wizards that hypnotize you, the lovers you have always dreamed of.”

"...the only way to find true happiness is to risk being completely cut open." — Chuck Palahniuk

"Even if [lolita] was a desire to be a little girl, I don’t see anything wrong with that. Why do we have to live in a world where we’re forced to leave innocence, magic, and wonder behind just because we reach a certain age? I enjoy the same things I did as a little girl, and I won’t ever “grow up” to suit society’s demands. It’s like The Who’s song My Generation with the lyric “I hope I die before I get old”… It doesn’t actually mean old as in old age. It means old as in losing your sense of wonder. I see many children who are “old”… and they’re getting “old” at progressively younger ages. It makes me sad."

"Life, a beautiful and strange anomaly, but why? And is there really a reason it occurs, or is it just a small side product of certain planets?" Ben Compson

"The sound of a heart breaking isn’t poetic. It is hollow. It is tragic. It calls for rituals – the denial, the shock, the anger, the disappointment, culminating in hopelessness. Just like a shrinking white star slowly collapsing inwardly, with memory drawn from every breath a blow. It’s like death without the sleeping part."

"It's the heart afraid of breaking that never learns to dance.
It's the dream afraid of waking that never takes the chance.
It's the mind afraid of losing that never learns to give.
And it's the soul afraid of dying that never learns to live."

"is this your sheperd, my flock? the sheperd that filled your puny hearts with hope?"

"It's better to burn out than to fade away."

"do you ever wonder if maybe you'd taken
that left turn instead of the right one
how different your life would be"

"People are unreasonable, illogical, and self-centered. Love them anyway.
If you do good, people may accuse you of selfish motives.
Do good anyway. If you are successful, you may win false friends and true enemies.
Succeed anyway. The good you do today may be forgotten tomorrow.
Do good anyway. Honesty and transparency make you vulnerable.
Be honest and transparent anyway. What you spend years building may be destroyed overnight.
Build anyway. People who really want help may attack you if you help them.
Help them anyway. Give the world the best you have and you may get hurt.
Give the world your best anyway."

"These days are going to change you. You're going to change. Tomorrow you might be a completely different person. You might not recognize your reflection. You have to accept the fact that things change. Feelings change. People live. People die. You have to accept that you're going to die too. Make every breath beautiful. Have some class. Have some grace. Be poetic. You're going to die. Any day, that's the beauty of it, you don't know when you will, so life becomes a mystery. A novel. Haven't you always wanted to be in one of those cheesy romance novels? Your life is one. So be daring. Live your life. You're going to die one day. It might be tomorrow. It might be fifty years from now, the beautiful thing is you don't know. So you have to live. Today is the best day of your life. Because its another day living."

"I do not fear death. I had been dead for billions and billions of years before I was born, and had not suffered the slightest inconvenience from it."— Mark Twain

"I'm not a monster, just a teenager" -Me

"a man with one watch, knows what time it is. a man with two, is never quite sure"

"To live is the rarest thing in the world. Most people exist, that is all."

"Good friends, good books and a sleepy conscience: this is the ideal life." —Mark Twain

"Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one. " —Bill Gates

"In the beginning the Universe was created. This has made a lot of people very angry and been widely regarded as a bad move." Eleanor Roosevelt

"Great minds discuss ideas, average minds discuss events, small minds discuss people."

"glitter is like herpies. Gettin them was easy, and now its a bitch to get rid of them."

"Every fights a food fight when your a cannibal"

"I love sleep, my life has a tendency to fall apart when im awake you know?" -Ernest Hemingway

"Time doesnt exist, clocks exist."

"Beauty without intelligence is like a masterpiece painted on a napkin."

"Maybe this world is another planets hell."

"Reason and love are sworn enemies."

"Every piece of this is man's bullshit. They call this war a cloud over the land, but they made the weather and then they stand in the rain and say, "Shit! Its rainin'!"-Cold Mountain

" You know what? Fuck beauty contests. Life is one fucking beauty contest after another. School, then college, then work... Fuck that. And fuck the Air Force Academy. If I want to fly, I'll find a way to fly. You do what you love, and fuck the rest. " - Little Miss Sunshine.

"If it doesnt kill you, itll emotionally and mentally scar you for the rest of your life and leave you with trust issues and moderate to serious social anxiety"

"I don't live day by day. I live dream by dream."

"i never fall apart because i never fall together"-Andy Warhol

"The greatest obstacle to discovery is not ignorance; it is the illusion of knowledge."—Daniel J. Boorstin

"Before you go and criticize the younger generation, just remember who raised them."

"How many legs does a dog have, if you call the tail a leg? Four. Calling a tail a leg doesn't make it a leg."-Abraham Lincoln

"I want to rip your butt off and mount it on a plaque above my bed. That's how good your butt is."

"Life is pain. anyone who says otherwise is trying to sell something"-the princess bride

"Only when its dark enough can you see the stars"

“To the well organized mind, death is but the next great adventure.” -Dumbledore

"History doesn't repeat itself, but it rhymes" -Mark Twain

Love Quotes

2011-09-27T22:06:00.003-07:00

Love
“So it’s not gonna be easy. It’s gonna be really hard. We’re gonna have to work at this every day, but I want to do that because I want you. I want all of you, for ever, you and me, every day. Will you do something for me, please? Just picture your life for me? 30 years from now, 40 years from now? What’s it look like? If it’s with him, go. Go! I lost you once, I think I can do it again. If I thought that’s what you really wanted. But don’t you take the easy way out.”—Noah

“I love you. You’re my only reason to stay alive… if that’s what I am.”—Edward

“Listen to me, mister. You’re my knight in shining armor. Don’t forget it."—Ethel

“But for now, let me say — without hope or agenda, just because it’s Christmas and at Christmas you tell the truth — to me, you are perfect. And my wasted heart will love you. Until you look like this [picture of a mummy]. Merry Christmas.”—Mark
“Winning that ticket, Rose, was the best thing that ever happened to me… it brought me to you … You must do me this honor, Rose. Promise me you’ll survive. That you won’t give up, no matter what happens, no matter how hopeless. Promise me now, Rose, and never let go of that promise.”—Jack

“…If, however, your feelings have changed, I will have to tell you: you have bewitched me, body and soul, and I love … I love … I love you. I never wish to be parted from you from this day on."—Darcy

"To define true love, would be to ruin it's purity, therefore, It has no definition."

“We loved a love that was more than love.” -Edgar Allan Poe

"Grow old along with me, the best is yet to be." -Robert Browning

"There is nothing sweeter in this sad world than the sound of someone you love calling your name."

“Love does not consist of gazing at each other, but in looking together in the same direction.” -Antoine de Saint-Exupery

“A man reserves his true and deepest love not for the species of woman in whose company he finds himself electrified and enkindled, but for that one in whose company he may feel tenderly drowsy.” -George Jean Nathan

“Infatuation is when you think that he’s as sexy as Robert Redford, as smart as Henry Kissinger, as noble as Ralph Nader, as funny as Woody Allen, and as athletic as Jimmy Conners. Love is when you realize that he’s as sexy as Woody Allen, as smart as Jimmy Conners, as funny as Ralph Nader, as athletic as Henry Kissinger, and nothing like Robert Redford–but you’ll take him anyway.” -Judith Viorst

“Love is a symbol of eternity. It wipes out all sense of time, destroying all memory of a beginning and all fear of an end.”

"Real love isn't blind. It sees, sees everything but loves anyway."

"One man by himself is nothing. Two people who belong together make a world." Hans Margolius

“ A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality. ” John Lennon

"I love you more than there are atoms in the universe"-Me to Justin

“ A dream you dream alone is only a dream. A dream you dream together is reality. ”
John Lennon

"For where thou art, there is the world itself, and where though art not, desolation" William Shakespeare

"As strange as we may be, I'm ecstatic that you belong to me."

"It's amazing how you can speak right to my heart
Without saying a word you can light up the dark
Try as I may I could never explain
What I hear when you don't say a thing"

"I don't love you with a love that is only meant for who you were when I met you. I love you with a love that accepts change. We're going to have our rough times and we're going to have our fun times.
Even if I dislike you today and like you tomorrow, I'll always love you"

"It is not a lack of love, but a lack of friendship that makes unhappy marriages."

“The wet, fatty ball of muscle and sinew that pumps my thick, steaming blood to all of my internal organs starts to beat irregularly when you come into my line of sight.”

"Love is a temporary madness. It erupts like an earthquake and then subsides. And when it subsides you have to make a decision. You have to work out whether your roots have become so entwined together that it is inconceivable that you should ever part. Because this is what love is. Love is not breathlessness, it is not excitement, it is not the promulgation of promises of eternal passion. That is just being "in love" which any of us can convince ourselves we are.
Love itself is what is left over when being in love has burned away, and this is both an art and a fortunate accident. Your mother and I had it, we had roots that grew towards each other underground, and when all the pretty blossom had fallen from our branches we found that we were one tree and not two." - Captain Corelli's Mandolin

"If you find love, I mean REAL love, well, you don’t give it up without putting up one hell of a fight."

"If life were easy, i would lay in bed with you all day" -Justin

Religious Quotes

2011-09-27T21:58:00.000-07:00

"If we believe absurdities, we shall commit atrocities" -Voltaire

"Why don’t I believe in God? No, no no, why do YOU believe in God? Surely the burden of proof is on the believer. You started all this. If I came up to you and said, “Why don’t you believe I can fly?” You’d say, “Why would I?” I’d reply, “Because it’s a matter of faith”. If I then said, “Prove I can’t fly. Prove I can’t fly see, see, you can’t prove it can you?” You’d probably either walk away, call security or throw me out of the window and shout, ‘’Fucking fly then you lunatic.” -Ricky Gervais

"To most Christians, the Bible is like a software license. Nobody actually reads it. They just scroll to the bottom and click "I agree."

“If Muslims shouldn’t build a mosque near ground zero, then Catholics shouldn’t build a church near a playground”.

"Kill a man, and you are an assassin. Kill millions of men, and you are a conqueror. Kill everyone, and you are a god." -Jean Rostand

"Man is certainly stark mad: he cannot make a worm, yet he will make gods by the dozen." -Michel de Montaigne

"Which is it, is man one of God’s blunders or is God one of man’s?" -Nietzsche

"We, on our side, are praying to Him to give us victory, because we believe we are right; but those on the other side pray to Him, too, for victory, believing they are right. What must He think of us? -Abraham Lincoln

"Invisible Pink Unicorns are beings of awesome mystical power. We know this because they manage to be invisible and pink at the same time. Like all religions, the Faith of the Invisible Pink Unicorns is based upon both logic and faith. We have faith that they are pink; we logically know that they are invisible because we can’t see them. -Steve Eley

"A man’s ethical behavior should be based effectually on sympathy, education, and social ties and needs; no religious basis is necessary. Man would indeed be in a poor way if he had to be restrained by fear of punishment and hope of reward after death. -Albert Einstein

"We must question the story logic of having an all-knowing all-powerful God, who creates faulty humans, and then blames them for his own mistakes." -Gene Roddenberry
"When did I realize I was God? Well, I was praying and I suddenly realized I was talking to myself." -Jack Gurney – “The Ruling Class” LOL!!

"The more I study religions the more I am convinced that man never worshipped anything but himself. -Sir R. F. Burton

"The good Christian should beware of mathematicians and all those who make empty prophecies. The danger already exists that mathematicians have made a covenant with the devil to darken the spirit and confine man in the bonds of Hell." -Saint Augustine

"The church says the earth is flat, but I know that it is round, for I have seen the shadow on the moon, and I have more faith in a shadow than in the church." - Ferdinand Magellan

"Religion is comparable to a childhood neurosis." - Sigmund Freud

"We must question the story logic of having an all-knowing all-powerful God, who creates faulty Humans, and then blames them for his own mistakes." - Gene Roddenberry

"A man is accepted into a church for what he believes and he is turned out for what he knows." - Samuel Clemens

"If people are good only because they fear punishment, and hope for a reward, then we are a sorry lot indeed." - Albert Einstein

"Faith is the great cop-out, the great excuse to evade the need to think and evaluate evidence. Faith is belief in spite of, even perhaps because of, the lack of evidence." - Richard Dawkins

"I don't believe in God. My god is patriotism. Teach a man to be a good citizen and you have solved the problem of life." - Andrew Carnegie

"Religion is regarded by the common people as true, by the wise as false, and by the rulers as useful." - Seneca the Younger

"My point is not that religion itself is the motivation for wars, murders and terrorist attacks, but that religion is the principal label, and the most dangerous one, by which a "they" as opposed to a "we" can be identified at all." - Richard Dawkins

"All thinking men are atheists." - Ernest Hemingway

"Every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics: You are all stardust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements - the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matter for evolution and for life - weren’t created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars, and the only way for them to get into your body is if those stars were kind enough to explode. So, forget God. The stars died so that you could be here today."

"All God does is watch us and kill us when we get boring. We must never, ever be boring." — Chuck Palahniuk

"Why would? you use scripture as an argument to prove gods existence on someone who doesn't believe in it's existence?"

"Properly read, the Bible is the most potent force for atheism ever conceived."
"There once was a time when all people believed in God and the church ruled. This time was called the Dark Ages."

"Religion has actually convinced people that there`s an invisible man -- living in the sky -- who watches everything you do, every minute of every day. And the invisible man has a special list of ten things he does not want you to do..And if you do any of these ten things, he has a special place, full of fire and smoke and burning and torture and anguish, where he will send you to live and suffer and burn and choke and scream and cry forever and ever `til the end of time! ...But He loves you."

"Religion is regarded by the common people as true, by the wise as false, and by the rulers as useful."

"Do not pray in my school, and I will not think in your church."

"You are basically killing each other to see who has got the better imaginary friend."

"With or without religion, you would have good people doing good things and evil people doing evil things. But for good people to do evil things, that takes religion."

"Man created God in his image: intolerant, sexist, homophobic and violent."

"Why should I allow that same God to tell me how to raise my kids, who had to drown His own?"

"Believing there is no God gives me more room for belief in family, people, love, truth, beauty, sex, Jell-o, and all the other things I can prove and that make this life the best life I will ever have."

"Deaths in the Bible. God - 2,270,365 not including the victims of Noah`s flood, Sodom and Gomorrah, or the many plagues, famines, fiery serpents, etc because no specific numbers were given. Satan - 10."

"You can`t use the bible to prove the bible"

"You do not need the Bible to justify love, but no better tool has been invented to justify hate."

"I refuse to believe in a god who is the primary cause of conflict in the world, preaches racism, sexism, homophobia, and ignorance, and then sends me to hell if I’m ‘bad’."

"The finality of death is the coldest truth one must face. Religion makes the perfect distraction."

"know god, no peace. no god, know peace"

"To become a religion it is only necessary for a superstition
to enslave a philosophy."

"Like all religions, the Holy Religion of the Invisible Pink Unicorn is based upon both Logic and Faith. We have Faith that She is Pink; and we Logically know that She is Invisible, because we can't see Her."

"Man is quite insane. He wouldn't know how to create a maggot
and he creates Gods by the dozen."

"For many, faith is a suitable substitute for knowledge,
as death is for a difficult life."

"Scratch the Christian and you find the pagan, spoiled."

"One religion is as true as another."

"The religion of one age is the literary entertainment of the next."

"The Bible has noble poetry in it... and some good morals and a wealth of obscenity, and upwards of a thousand lies."-Mark Twain

"go to heaven for the climate and hell for the company"-Mark Twain

"I cannot believe in a God who wants to be praised all the time."-Friedrich Nietzsche

"Faith: not wanting to know what is true."-Friedrich Nietzsche

"It is far better to grasp the Universe as it really is than to persist in delusion, however satisfying and reassuring."-Carl Sagan

"Extraordinary claims require extraordinary evidence."-Carl Sagan

"The best cure for Christianity is reading the Bible."-Mark Twain

"The wisdom of christ-he had some good wisdom, until we interpreted it"-Stan Lovelace

"Faith means not wanting to know what is true." –Friedrich Nietzsche

"A man is accepted into a church for what he believes and he is turned out for what he knows." –Samuel Clemens (Mark Twain)

"I distrust those people who know so well what God wants them to do because I notice it always coincides with their own desires."-Susan Brownell Anthony

"Truth, in matters of religion, is simply the opinion that has survived."-Oscar Wilde

“And even if we did have only Christians in our midst, if we expelled every non-Christian from the United States of America, whose Christianity would we teach in the schools? Would we go with James Dobson's, or Al Sharpton's? Which passages of Scripture should guide our public policy? Should we go with Leviticus, which suggests slavery is ok and that eating shellfish is abomination? How about Deuteronomy, which suggests stoning your child if he strays from the faith? Or should we just stick to the Sermon on the Mount - a passage that is so radical that it's doubtful that our own Defense Department would survive its application? So before we get carried away, let's read our bibles. Folks haven't been reading their bibles.”— Barack Obama

“I'm completely in favor of the separation of Church and State. My idea is that these two institutions screw us up enough on their own, so both of them together is certain death.”— George Carlin

"An Atheist believes that a hospital should be built instead of a church.
An Atheist believes that a deed must be done instead of a prayer said.
An Atheist strives for involvement in life and not escape into death.
He wants disease conquered, poverty vanished, war eliminated."- Madalyn Murray O'Hair

"Science flies you to the moon. Religion flies you into buildings."

"Religion is excellent stuff for keeping common people quiet."-Napoleon Bonaparte

"The greatest tragedy in mankind's entire history may be the hijacking of morality by religion."-Arthur C. Clarke

“I like your Christ, I do not like your Christians. Your Christians are so unlike your Christ”.- Mahatma Gandhi

"True religion is real living; living with all one's soul, with all one's goodness and righteousness." Albert Einstein

"When we blindly adopt a religion, a political system, a literary dogma, we become automatons. We cease to grow." Anais Nin

"Lighthouses are more helpful than churches." Benjamin Franklin

"A person has no religion who has not slowly and painfully gathered one together, adding to it, shaping it, and one's religion is never complete and final, it seems, but must always be undergoing modification." D.H. Lawrence

"We have just enough religion to make us hate, but not enough to make us love one another." Jonathan Swift

"I am convinced that I am acting as the agent of our Creator. By fighting off the Jews, I am doing the Lord’s work." -Adolf Hitler

"Anyone who thinks sitting in church can make you a Christian must also think that sitting in a garage can make you a car."

"I respect faith, but doubt is what gets you an education."—Wilson Mizner

Henry Miller

2011-09-27T20:44:00.000-07:00

“You picture me as being unhappy for some thinly disguised reason. You think I have problems of some sort, which I am reluctant or ashamed to confess. No, unfortunately, no. Unlike you, I am not always aware of what it is I suffer from. Like Salavin again, whose lines I remember so vividly, I suffer because of myself. It is my own soul all the time that is bothering me. I am completely egocentric.”
—Henry Miller to Anaïs Nin, 1933

Pablo Neruda

2011-09-27T20:42:00.000-07:00

I do not love you as if you were salt-rose, or topaz,
or the arrow of carnations the fire shoots off.
I love you as certain dark things are to be loved,
in secret, between the shadow and the soul.

I love you as the plant that never blooms
but carries in itself the light of hidden flowers;
thanks to your love a certain solid fragrance,
risen from the earth, lives darkly in my body.

I love you without knowing how, or when, or from where.
I love you straightforwardly, without complexities or pride;
so I love you because I know no other way than this:

where I does not exist, nor you,
so close that your hand on my chest is my hand,
so close that your eyes close as I fall asleep.
— Pablo Neruda

Violet and Claire quotes

2011-09-18T19:56:00.001-07:00

"And in a way they are death, because they are escape from the real world into a kind of oblivion. But there is another death, and that is the death of being alive and becoming a woman and getting old."
"But I'm afraid if I become real, I'll be like my mother- bloated and sad. i'd rather chew morsels and suck flowers and wear feathers. I never want to be like her. She used to be this fragile girl who believed my father had given her wings."
"I wish I wasn't a girl who needed so much but a little free creature that slept in deserts and ran on clouds and lived on lilies."

My top favorite books

2011-07-27T15:40:00.000-07:00

Series:
Anita Blake Series
A Series of Unfortunate Events
A Song of Fire and Ice series
Inkheart Series
The Giver Series
The Midnighters Series
The Prowler Series
The Uglies Series
The Vampire Chronicles

Others:
1984
Animal Farm
Beauty: A Retelling of the Story of Beauty and the Beast
Genesis
Memoirs of a Geisha
Number the Stars
Out of the Dust
Shanghai Girls
Slaughterhouse Five
Snow Flower and the Secret Fan
The Horse Whisperer
The Host
The Martian Chronicles
The Outsider
Violet and Claire

My top favorite movies.

2011-07-27T00:22:00.001-07:00

Jane Austen:
Becoming Jane
Pride and Prejudice
Sense and Sensibility

Royalty:
Elizabeth
Elizabeth: The Golden Age
Elizabeth 1: The Virgin Queen
Jane Eyre (2011)
Marie Antoinette
The Countess
The Duchess
The Other Boleyn Girl
The Virgin Queen
The Young Victoria

Other Period Pieces:
Agora
A Knight's Tale
A Little Princess
Atonement
A Very Long Engagement
Bright Star
Brokeback Mountain
Centurion
Cracks
Cold Mountain
Glorious 39
Hannibal Rising
Inglorious Bastards
Memoirs of a Geisha
Moulin Rouge
National Velvet
Pan's Labyrinth
Pearl Harbor
Saving Private Ryan
Schindler's List
Silk
Sleepy Hollow
Sophie Scholl: The Final Days
Snow White: A Tale of Terror
Sweeney Todd
The Edge of Love
The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus
The Notebook
The Secret of Moonacre
Tipping The Velvet
Titanic
Tristan + Isolde
War Horse

Animated:
Corpse Bride
Howl's Moving Castle
Princess Mononoke
Spirited Away
The Nightmare Before Christmas

Others:
5ive Girls
A Clockwork Orange
A Series of Unfortunate Events
Big Fish
Black Swan
Bring It On
Burlesque
But I'm a Cheerleader
Cry Baby
Dakota Skye
Dolls
Donnie Darko
Downfall
Easy A
Edward Scissorhands
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Ghost world
Ginger Snaps
Grease
I Love You Phillip Morris
Little Miss Sunshine
Loving Anabelle
Mean Girls
Mr Nobody
Pretty Persuasion
S Darko
Shutter Island
Signs
SLC Punk
Splice
Star Wars
Sucker Punch
The Craft
The Breakfast Club
The Butterfly Effect
The Fifth Element
The Fountain
The Help
The Horse Whisperer
The Lovely Bones
The Matrix
The Mist
The Princess Diaries
The Runaways
The Tracy Fragments
The Village
The Virgin Suicides
Troll Hunter
Vampire Chronicle Movies
What Dreams May Come
Whip it
White Oleander
World's Greatest Dad
Wristcutters: A Love Story
Youth in Revolt
Zero Day

38. If you had the opportunity to go back in time and make a change, would you still want to have the same parents?

2011-06-26T10:31:00.000-07:00

Uh duh. If they hadn't been so protective then who knows how I would have turned out. I also probably wouldn't be into horses, and I wouldn't have Pezo.

What is that thing that no one, not even your partner, your mother or your best friend, knows about you?

2011-05-18T09:39:00.001-07:00

This one is tough because I think Justin knows everything about me. But I think that there are some things he doesn't understand the extent of. Everyone knows that I have nightmares almost every night but I don't think anyone knows how bad they are. Sometimes they aren't too bad, but a lot of the times they are absolutely horrifying. Some of the worst ones for me are about dinosaurs. I know that sounds stupid or funny but it is terrifying for me. I wake up crying and shaking and it's so hard for me to fall back asleep. If I had health insurance I would go see a doctor about it, but I don't so I just have to deal with it. I don't think anyone understands my obsession with organization and cleaning. Everyone jokes that I have OCD. I probably do. But will I go to a doctor? Nope, can't afford it. So I deal. It gets bad though. Yesterday Justin and I were in the van and it was so messy that I started scratching my own hands and shaking. Messes drive me nuts. I try to hide it, but sometimes I can't. So I sit and pull on my fingers and scratch my arms and hands and pull on my hair. I think that is something that nobody knows about. When something is messy or not done right I start hurting myself. I don't think that anyone has seen me do that before.

Horse quotes

2011-03-23T15:42:00.000-07:00

“In my sport, we don’t have breaks or timeouts, there’s no off season and no one sits out on the bench.
We don’t postpone because of weather and we don’t quit on account of injury. I don’t talk to my teamate but we communicate without words.
We don’t practice 5 hours a week, more like 5 hours a day, 6 days a week.
All my sport really is, is galloping full speed, finding distances, swapping leads, spinning, jumping high fences, stopping suddenly at great speeds, doing the required pattern EXACTLY how it is written, and looking good doing it. If you think that running, jumping, shooting, or throwing a ball or anything else is more difficult than sitting on an animal that weighs at least 10 times as much as you with a mind of its own… while riding full speed towards a solid stationary object that stands taller than you do , tell me about your sorry excuse for a sport.” - Anonymous

"There is no secret so close as that between a rider and his horse." -Robert Smith Surtees

"Our greatest glory is not in never falling, but in rising every time we fall."

"There are only two emotions that belong in the saddle; one is a sense of humour and the other is patience." -John Lyons

"All horses deserve, at least once in their lives, to be loved by a little girl."

"You can tell a horse owner by the interior of their car. Boots, mud, pony nuts, straw, items of tack and a screwed-up waxed jacket of incredible antiquity. There is normally a top layer of children and dogs." -Helen Thompson

"My treasures do not glitter or chink. They gleam in the sunlight and neigh in the night."

"I live in a house but my home is in the stable."

"That moment when you step into your left stirrup and slide into the seat of your saddle in one fluid, practiced, perfectly graceful motion. And at that moment, all is right in the world. Every doubt, stress, worry, mood, completely disappears. Everything that you are lies in the center of gravity between you and your horse. And you know, without any doubt at all, you're exactly where you're meant to be."

“Equestrians are some of the most confident athletes you will ever meet. Not many people are able to get thrown to the ground repeatedly and still get up to try again…and again…and again.”

“What is Equestrian? It’s the bleary eyed 4 AM mornings, 4 hour drives; Memorizing hunter and jumper courses. Cleaning stalls, riding in 102 degree weather, sweat, blood and bruises; It’s the perfume of saddle soap, liniment and a job well done;It’s showing at 10 PM when you’ve been awake since 3 AM;It’s everyday of the week, having a person yell at you until your in tears.It’s finding new friends in an unexpected way;It’s spooks and braiding until your fingers bleed;It’s hauling a state away and paying an arm and a leg to have a judge tell you you just aren’t good enough;It’s a day in and day out sport, there’s no fouls or red cards;It’s working that much harder to be better;It’s practicing everyday, no matter the circumstances;It’s looking good while working your ass off and not letting it show; It’s my Life.And I love it.”

Untitled.

2011-03-18T19:31:00.000-07:00

Moss covered paths between scarlet peonies,

Pale jade mountains fill your rustic windows,

I envy you, drunk with flowers,

Butterflies swirling in your dreams.

-Kenneth Rexroth

Pocahontas.

2011-03-15T21:49:00.000-07:00

Today Pocahontas died. This is probably the worst day of my life. My dad called me as we were leaving the movies. He thinks that she just died of old age. So I came home and I don't think I've ever cried so much in my life. I went to sleep and 3:30 and just now got up at 9:30. Every time I tried waking up I remembered why I was asleep and started crying again. I've had her since I was 3 years old and she was 16. What really sucks is that I wanted to take her with me when I moved out last June but my parents wouldn't let me. And Justin and I were planning on moving out soon and I wanted to take her when we have our own place.

And a video of my princess attacking the screensaver on my laptop.
click here

World of Warcraft

2011-02-07T18:24:00.000-08:00

Even though I don't play anymore...

My Chemical Romance

2011-02-07T17:57:00.000-08:00

Ray Toro

Frank Iero

Mikey Way

Gerard Way (can you guess who my favorite member is?)

All

#1 Juno Temple

2011-02-06T23:55:00.008-08:00

Movies:
Atonement
St Trinian's
Cracks
Mr. Nobody
Year One
Wild Child
Glorious 39

Previous Posts about her:
1
2

#2 Kerli

2011-02-06T23:55:00.007-08:00

No movies, only amazing style and music.

Previous Posts about her:
1
2

#3 Thora Birch

2011-02-06T23:55:00.006-08:00

Movies:
Pregnancy Pact
Ghost World
Winter of Frozen Dreams
Dark Corners
The Hole

Previous Posts about her:
1

#4 Kate Winslet

2011-02-06T23:55:00.005-08:00

Movies:
Titanic
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Sense and Sensibility

#5 Kristen Dunst

2011-02-06T23:55:00.004-08:00

Movies:
Marie Antoinette
Virgin Suicides
Spider Man
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Kiki's Delivery Service

Previous posts about her.
1
2

#6 Scarlett Johansson

2011-02-06T23:55:00.003-08:00

Movies:
Iron Man 2
The Other Boleyn Girl
The Prestige
Ghost World
Horse Whisperer (one of my all time favorite movies)

#7 Keira Knightley

2011-02-06T23:55:00.002-08:00

Movies:
Pirates of the Caribbean
The Duchess
The Edge of Love
Atonement

#8 Emma Watson

2011-02-06T23:55:00.001-08:00

Movies:
Harry Potter, duh

#9 Ellen Page

2011-02-06T23:55:00.000-08:00

Movies:
Juno
Inception
Whip it
Hard Candy
The Tracy Fragments
An American Crime

#10 Nicole Kidman

2011-02-06T23:50:00.000-08:00

My favorite movies with her:
Moulin Rouge
Australia
Cold Mountain

My list of the top 10 hottest and most beautiful women.

2011-02-06T23:47:00.000-08:00

Alright, so I'm doing this on my Tumblr but I figured I would do it on this blog also so that I can add more pictures and detail. Basically I've made a list of some of the hottest and most beautiful girls in my opinion. They go in order and I will start with number 10.

I was excited.

2011-02-03T23:18:00.000-08:00

11:18 PM - Captain Corpsie: Jacquelynn wants to teach high school English and I wanna teach high school History
11:18 PM - Captain Corpsie: WE CAN WORK TOGETHER
11:18 PM - Captain Corpsie: HOLY SHIT

Are you fucking serious?

2011-02-03T22:10:00.000-08:00

I'm getting so sick of my child development class. Everyone thinks that since they have kids, they know everything and the professors are wrong. It is so fucking annoying. Just because your kid does something a little different then most kids it doesn't mean that everything that has been concluded from YEARS of research and observation is wrong. Sorry, but that's not how this works. There will always be exceptions and special cases in psychology. Every individual is unique, so shut the fuck up and don't tell someone who has dedicated years to learning about a certain topic that they are completely wrong. Seriously. Oh and if you raise your hand to talk in class MAKE IT RELEVANT. I'm getting sick of everyone raising there hands to tell the entire class about their child. Nobody fucking cares. Today the professor was talking about birth and said sometimes the water doesn't break and the doctor will have to break it and a girl raised her hand and said "my water didn't break, the doctor had to break it" WHY THE FUCK DO WE CARE. The professor JUST said that happens. So shut the fuck up and stop wasting the professors time. Every fucking time the professors says something, someone raises their hand to say something about their kid. I am there to learn, not listen to a bunch of annoying bitches babble on about their babies. I DON'T WANT TO HERE ABOUT YOUR FUCKING KIDS. I DON'T CARE. I REALLY FUCKING DON'T SO SHUT THE FUCK UP.

/rant.

The best sport there is.

2011-02-03T22:02:00.000-08:00

Beezie Madden
Beezie Madden 2
Rodrigo Pessoa
Derby

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

2011-02-01T18:38:00.000-08:00

In celebration of our engagement. It's a little bit late but oh well.

Kitty Cats :)

2011-02-01T18:35:00.000-08:00

Shakespeare Sonnet 116: Let Me Not to the Marriage of True Minds

2011-01-25T20:59:00.001-08:00

Shakespeare Sonnet 116: Let Me Not to the Marriage of True Minds

Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O, no! it is an ever-fixed mark,
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth’s unknown, although his height be taken.
Love’s not Time’s fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle’s compass come;
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

Modern Translation:

I would not admit that anything could interfere with the union of two people who love each other. Love that alters with changing circumstances is not love, nor if it bends from its firm state when someone tries to destroy it. Oh no, it’s an eternally fixed point that watches storms but is never itself shaken by them. It is the star by which every lost ship can be guided: one can calculate it’s distance but not gauge its quality. Love doesn’t depend on Time, although the rosy lips and cheeks of youth eventually come within the compass of Time’s sickle. Love doesn’t alter as the days and weeks go by but endures until death. If I’m wrong about this then I’ve never written anything and no man has ever loved.

soft hands-strong legs-steady mind

2011-01-24T21:01:00.000-08:00

"somewhere behind the athlete you've become, the coaches who pushed you, the people who believed in you, the long hours of schooling and the dirt beneath your nails, the falls you've taken and the ribbons you didn't win, the tears you've cried and the horses you've given your heart to, is the little girl who fell in love with a horse and never looked back."

I'm an atheist.

2011-01-24T20:50:00.000-08:00

And just for LOLs

What is love?

2011-01-20T22:52:00.000-08:00

What is love?

Love is a heartbeat, that consumes the entirety of your being for the briefest second.
Love is seeing and appreciating one finger, one eye, one strand of hair, one smile.
Love is sweating from the feeling of heat and chill in each breath she takes.
Love is the all consuming blink between how you see her perfectly, and how much more perfect she is in the next frame.

Love is a stabbing pain, gutting you from the inside, and pulling you apart;
Love is the horror of knowing the pain of another, wanting desperately to help.
Love is willing to do anything for another out of choice, out of honest belief
that anything better for them is worth anything of yours.

Love is every moment in bliss, ecstasy, an divine belief.
Love is knowing an angel, and dying inside to see her cast to humanity.

E. E. Cummings 3

2011-01-17T21:30:00.000-08:00

the great advantage of being alive

the great advantage of being alive
(instead of undying) is not so much
that mind no more can disprove than prove
what heart may feel and soul may touch
--the great(my darling)happens to be
that love are in we,that love are in we

and here is a secret they never will share
for whom create is less than have
or one times one than when times where--
that we are in love,that we are in love:
with us they've nothing times nothing to do
(for love are in we am in i are in you)

this world(as timorous itsters all
to call their cowardice quite agree)
shall never discover our touch and feel
--for love are in we are in love are in we;
for you are and i am and we are(above
and under all possible worlds)in love

a billion brains may coax undeath
from fancied fact and spaceful time--
no heart can leap,no soul can breathe
but by the sizeless truth of a dream
whose sleep is the sky and the earth and the sea.
For love are in you am in i are in we

Kerli

2011-01-16T02:00:00.000-08:00

I fucking love her. She's an amazing singer from Estonia.
Bulletproof Live
I'm currently obsessed with this song and the video.
Army of Love

Did I mention that I got dreads?

2011-01-16T01:48:00.000-08:00

Cause I totally fucking did. They are synthetic and briad into my hair.

E. E. Cummings 2

2011-01-15T21:05:00.000-08:00

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than the soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

- e. e. cummings

Guys! (nope, not girls this time)

2010-12-15T15:44:00.000-08:00

Creepy, eerie, and wierd

2010-12-13T15:22:00.000-08:00

This blog

2010-08-15T13:47:00.001-07:00

Will be my own personal journal.
Basically for my own rants, inspiration and anything awesome I may do.
I'm gonna start drawing again. I mean really drawing like I used to. I'll post those here.
Also I want to start writing again. I miss it :(
I will also do random photo dumps once a week.
And Wednesday will be Wedding Wednesday. I have so many wedding ideas.
Justin and I will be posting specific wedding things on our blog, but my super favorite things and things I just think are pretty will be posted here.

Wedding Rant

2010-08-10T20:43:00.001-07:00

Why do people feel the need to spend thousands of dollars on a wedding. I mean a $9,000 wedding dress? Are you seriously. Shouldn't a couple save money for their future AFTER the wedding. Do you really need to spend that much money? Weddings should be about committing yourself to the person you love. It should be special, and it certainty shouldn't be about spending a ton of money on one day. You should be planner for your future together, NOT the single day. I get that it's supposed to be special, but shouldn't it be special just because your marrying the person you want to spend the rest of your life with? A simple trip to the courthouse should still make the day the best in your life. Weddings need to be about love. Not material.

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2010-08-09T22:05:00.000-07:00

And last but not least-what goes on in Justin's mind...

This blog is stuck

2010-08-08T11:26:00.000-07:00

I need to blog about things instead of just posting pictures. That's what my Tumblr is for. So in a week I'll start really blogging. Until then I will figure out what to blog about and jeep posting more pictures :)

Eva Iesco

2010-07-29T01:38:00.000-07:00

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2010-07-29T01:08:00.000-07:00

San Francisco

2010-07-28T15:44:00.000-07:00

I went to San Francisco with Justin, his uncle Scott, cousin Hannah, and sister Jessica. It was my first time at the beach or playing in the ocean :) We walked around pier seven, then went up some cliffs to see old bunkers and the ocean, went to the beach and played in the ocean, and then to pier 39 to shop and walk around. It was super awesome :)

I was totally checkin out his ass.

A random cute video Justin's little sister Jessica took :)

My hair

2010-07-19T12:25:00.000-07:00

Before (I let Justin style it lol)

After (now it's just plain old black. But I still love it!)

Fashion

2010-07-18T23:22:00.000-07:00

1. Best fashion advice you've ever received?
Wear something that fits your body and your shape. Don't wear clothes that are too baggy or tight. D

2. Style icons?
Émilie Simon, Ellen Page, Thora birch, Ophelia Overdose.

3. Describe your personal style.
Casual goth with random cute.

4. Favorite designers/brands?
Tripp. Seriously. But I really don't pay attention to brand. I usually shop at thrift stores.

5. Most cherished items?
My horror film hoodie, and my combat boots.

6. Most used item?
Black tights. Opaque, sheer and ripped.

7. I feel best wearing?
skirts and shorts.

8. The first thing I look for in another's outfit...
How their hair fits it. Honestly.

9. Fashion rule you never break?
I break them all whenever I want.

10. Never caught wearing?
Kawaii anything

11. Dress to impress who?
Myself

12. Your next "must have" purchase?
New chains for my wallet.

13. Favorite type of accessory?
necklaces.

14. Favorite cut of clothing?
Not sure.

15. Current obsession?
boots.

16. Best fashion advice you can give to anyone:
See number 1

Movies and shows to watch

2010-07-16T20:03:00.000-07:00

Kaboom
Jay and Seth vs. the Apocalypse
Skins
"Tess of the D'Urbervilles"
The Affair of the Necklace
As You Like It

Marie Antoinette

2010-07-16T10:17:00.003-07:00

Equality

2010-07-04T11:16:00.000-07:00

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2010-07-04T11:10:00.000-07:00

Hearts

2010-07-04T11:04:00.000-07:00

Bloodrayne

2010-06-23T20:07:00.001-07:00

Bloodrayne 2 is my all time favorite game, even though it sucks. Maybe because I get to watch her ass while playing? (Haha, just kidding. That's Justin's theory) Although...I do know the game was made for the sex appeal. I mean seriously, does a dress need slits that high?

Oh and her feature in Playboy. Lawl.

Mmm...Undercut :)

2010-06-22T22:44:00.000-07:00

I want one sooo badly :)
Click Here

My favorite Etsy shops and items

2010-06-11T11:43:00.000-07:00

vintageopulence:
Store
Dress 1
Dress 2

The Pink Purse
Naturally Bohemian
persephones jewel
Lace and Chiffon Wedding dress

Some Juno Temple

2010-06-11T03:07:00.000-07:00

Plushgun
With Tyler Shields
Smoking

Finally

2010-06-05T20:24:00.000-07:00

Moved into Justin's house! The room is kinda cramped but it works. Last night I got a call from my mom though, telling me that my horse Pezo has strangles and almost died. So Justin took me on a walk so that I would feel better. So this morning I went out to the barn. I helped my aunt and fed and moved the horses and cleaned all the stalls, because my aunt was busy taking care of Pezo and couldn't touch any other horses until she showered because he is very contagious. My grandma's horse, who is the mother of my horse, got colic and died. But she fell on my grandma and she had to be taken to the hospital. She has 2 broken bones in her leg. It wasn't a great day, but we came home and slept then went swimming and had fun. Hopefully tomorrow nothing traumatic happens and I hope that it isn't so hot!

The week is halfway over

2010-06-02T12:04:00.000-07:00

It's already been a long one. All I want to do is curl up in bed and read. I just wish I could do that with Justin next to me. But I can't until Friday. And I can't do it anything today, because I have to get all my laundry done and pack it all.

I miss riding.

2010-06-01T20:47:00.000-07:00

I want to start riding again. I miss my horse. I miss the smell, the heat, the dirt. I miss the aching and the sweat. I miss the smell of leather, fly spray, and showsheen, the blisters on my hands, and my legs being bloody and scabbed over.
I miss it all.

So here's some Rodrigo Pessoa.
I hope I can ride like him, at the international level some day.
Number 1
Number 2
Number 3

My Religious views.

2010-05-31T19:38:00.000-07:00

I believe I should just live a good life and when I die, I'll know

there's this quote

"Live a good life. If there are gods and they are just, then they will not care how devout you have been, but will welcome you based on the virtues you have lived by. If there are gods, but unjust, then you should not want to worship them." -M.Auerelius

and I kinda decided to live by that. I spent a few years studying to be a Jehovah's witness, but I was afraid that if I believed and my loved ones didn't, would I have suffer for eternity without them?

I spent a long time being depressed. After all, so many wars and fights are caused in the name of one's religion. Why fight about it? We will die, and then we will know who was right, if anybody is. We could all be wrong.

The bible says we will not suffer, and be free from all sadness and suffering, but happiness is relative. We can't know happiness if we don't know pain. I don't want to be void of emotion.

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2010-05-20T21:05:00.001-07:00

I could live like this.

2010-05-19T20:58:00.000-07:00

In a space this small, as long as Justin was sharing it with me.
I love how cozy it looks. Books and Justin. How perfect would life be?

It's been a long week.

2010-05-19T20:48:00.002-07:00

Senior Ball

2010-05-16T19:17:00.000-07:00

So, yesterday was quite eventful. Justin came over at 9:30. Went to Barnes and noble and sat there for about 3 hours. We found these books called "How well do you know your bride/groom" so we decided to quiz each other. I miss 16 out of 100 about him, and he missed 10 out of 100 for me. Then we went to cold stone and got ice cream! Finally, we went home and took a nap. At 4, I went over to Jacquelynn's house and her mom did my hair for me. Then back to my house, where Justin and I got dressed and got pictures. Then we went to our favorite restaurant with my friends, Jacquelynn, Stan, Caitlin, and her date William. We had a lot of fun there. Then to Justin's house, because his mom wanted pictures. Then finally the dance. We sat and made fun of other people, we didn't dance at all, then we left after 45 minutes. Aren't we fun. So we went back to his house and went to sleep. The end.

My hair.

Us.

Corsage and Boutonniere made by me!

Fuck yes.

2010-04-22T16:50:00.000-07:00

I love that they didn't change any of the lyrics :)
Zebrahead

I love Avril's french version to. HEY HEY YOU YOU JE N'AIME PAS TA COPINE! :)
French

Submission.

2010-04-21T18:48:00.000-07:00

I'm getting better

2010-04-15T19:09:00.001-07:00

I have this horrid urge to cut my hair.

2010-04-15T19:09:00.000-07:00

Or shave it.

Ah, Marie Antoinette meets Mean Girls

2010-04-15T19:07:00.000-07:00

my two favorite movies.

Helena Bonham Carter

2010-04-15T18:51:00.000-07:00

Kirsten Dunst

2010-04-11T19:49:00.000-07:00

Research paper

2010-04-08T18:12:00.000-07:00

Written for my Senior Project. It took a long time, but it's finally finished.
Equine Conformation Abnormalities
Many equestrian enthusiasts can say that they have seen a truly “ugly” horse. Many can also say that they have seen a truly beautiful horse. But what makes some horses much more beautiful than the other horses? Or, what makes other horses “ugly“? The answer is usually conformation. Conformation is the proportion of the horse’s body in relation to itself. There are many different kinds of abnormalities, but the most apparent ones are related to conformation. Some of them can be prevented, but some of them are inherited. Most conformation abnormalities occur in the head and neck, the legs and hooves, and the back of the horse.
One abnormality in the head and neck is called parrot mouth, which is the over growth of the upper jaw, or the underdevelopment of the lower jaw (Equine 330). It “allows the premolar and molar teeth to form sharp, uneven edges” (330). A horse born with parrot mouth is commonly undesired, but it generally has no effect on the horse’s ability to perform athletically, although in some extreme cases it can cause pain while chewing. Some horses with parrot mouth have to be ridden in a hackamore (a bridle with a noseband used to control the horse) rather than a bit (the part of the bridle that goes into the horses mouth that is used to control the horse), because of the discomfort caused by the bit sitting on the teeth. Since parrot mouth is a genetic abnormality, there is no way to prevent it from occurring. However proper dental care can alleviate any pain that may be caused to the horse.
One common neck abnormality is called ewe neck. This is when the neck is curved in a concave way on the top of the neck, from the withers to the poll. There is often a depression right in front of the withers. Ewe neck is often described as an upside-down neck. A horse with ewe neck might suffer decreased athletic ability caused by limited flexibility (Equine 334). Unsightly as it may be, a horse being shown in a conformation class with a long ewe neck, it will be placed higher than a horse with a short neck. This is because the longer neck will have more balance and be more flexible (White-Mullen 63). Therefore a horse with a long ewe neck has greater athletic ability, yet ewe neck is still considered highly undesired and very unsightly. However ewe neck isn’t the only neck abnormality considered unsightly and undesired.
While ewe neck is a depression in the neck, cresty neck is when the neck is convex from the withers to the poll. Although it may be desired in some specific breeds, it is undesired in most. Cresty neck is thought to be caused by Equine Metabolic Syndrome also known as EMS. A horse with EMS will have fat deposits along the crest of it’s neck. This may explain why horses develop a cresty neck. Cresty neck is mostly undesired in mares because it indicates a lack of femininity (Equine 334). In cases of an extreme cresty neck, a horse may have difficulty maneuvering and may be inflexible. If a horse has a cresty neck it may suffer from many other difficulties, and because of this, is vastly unwanted.
Like the head and neck, there are many abnormalities that can be found in a horse’s legs and hooves. One particular affliction in the limbs of a horse is Hip Dysplasia, which is a rare developmental abnormality and deformity of the hip bone (Equine 341). It causes reduced flexibility in the stifle and hock and is extremely painful. Hip Dysplasia is very recognizable because the affected horse will walk with short steps and “the deformed side of the pelvis is usually lower than the normal side” (342). Although it has been attempted, surgical correction has not been successful in horses. Most horses that are affected with Hip Dysplasia are euthanized because of the extreme pain caused by it. It is a very sad ailment, because there is no way to predict an onset of it, nor a way to treat it. However some other leg and hoof abnormalities that can be treated.
One major defect in the hooves is called contracted heels. This condition is when “the foot is narrower than normal, literally contracted, especially at the heel” (Hadden 43). Contracted heels can be caused by improper shoeing and will bear serious consequences. It usually occurs in the front feet, rather than the hind feet (Frank 178). It is characterized as a lack of frog pressure and lack of moisture. Horses who suffer from contracted heel, are usually lame and may be unable to be ridden or used as a work horse. Having contracted heels is an inherited defect, so there is no way to prevent it. Luckily though, it can be treated and prevented with proper hoof care and shoeing.
Like contracted heels, flat feet can cause serious problems for a horse. This is when the sole of the hoof is not arched and is level with the frog and bars. The sole is not meant to have weight on it and because of that, is very sensitive. Therefore, the sole of the foot is not supposed to touch the ground, but in flat footed horse it does. This can cause numerous problems, including bruises and lameness (Equine 340). To relieve the pressure on their soles, many horses with flat feet walk on their heels and because of this, the horse tends to have irregular gaits. This will make a horse who has flat feet much less desirable. Flat feet is most commonly found in draft horses rather than light breed horses. There is no known treatment for flat feet, however, special shoes can be made to alleviate the horse’s pain. Unfortunately many of these leg and hoof defects can cause lameness which is the favoring of an affected foot (Ensminger 954). Many of these abnormalities can be alleviated, but not cured, just like many back abnormalities.
The most obvious and unsightly of equine conformation abnormalities are back abnormalities. One of these, Lordosis, most commonly called sway back, is a condition in which a horse’s spine is dipped, instead of having a nice straight line from the withers to the hip. It “is closely associated with flat croups, long backs, age, or underdeveloped vertebrae that cannot support weight properly” (Equine 345). On a horse, the mid back is suspended between the shoulder and the pelvis by intervertebral muscles and ligaments. A flat croup decreases the angle of these muscles and causes the horse’s back to strain, while a long back increases the distance requiring support (345). Although there is no way to predict whether or not a horse will develop Lordosis, many believe that risk factors include multiple pregnancies, long backs, and old age. There is no cure for Lordosis, but a horse suffering from sway back can be alleviated through certain exercises and proper saddle fitting if it will be ridden. Unfortunately though, Lordosis is not the only severe, nor the worst back abnormality.
Unlike Lordosis, Kyphosis is characterized by a short, arched back and a rounded appearance over the loins (Hadden 267). Many consider it to be the exact opposite of Lordosis, but Kyphosis is just as severe, if not more severe than Lordosis. Horses that suffer from Kyphosis, have inflexibility of the spine, shortness of stride and during fast gaits, there is contact between their fore limbs and their hind limbs (Equine 348). Horses with Kyphosis usually aren’t ridden because the rider’s weight would be directly supported by the arched back bone. Kyphosis is believed to be a hereditary defect, but because it is so rare, not much is known about the condition, and because so little is known, there is no way to prevent Kyphosis from occurring. Horses with Kyphosis are highly susceptible to serious back injury, making this one of the worst abnormalities.
Another serious back abnormality is Multiple Exostosis which is a skeletal development abnormality (Hadden 629). Horses with Multiple Exostosis will have bony growths on the ribs, pelvis, and long bones. Usually these growths stabilize as the horse matures, except in rare occurrences of malignant growths (Equine 348). These growths vary in size and shape. Multiple Exostosis is usually present at birth. As the horse matures and grows, theses lesions continue to develop. “Exostoses do not always develop near growth plates or areas of stress, but develop from small, gray-blue foci found on the surface of most bones of the body” (Hadden 629). Although there is no known cure for Multiple Exostosis, it rarely affects athletic ability. Multiple Exostosis is an inherited abnormality where, like humans, it is transmitted from parent to offspring. Although, it has occurred in horses with no previous family history of Multiple Exostosis, so it may be the result of a mutation. Fortunately most horses with Multiple Exostosis live normal lives.
There are so many different conformation abnormalities, in a variety of types, some are more serious than others. Equine conformation abnormalities usually occur in the head and neck, the legs and hooves, and the back of the horse, and these areas can affect a horse’s health and athletic ability greatly, or they could be simply cosmetic. There is a popular saying that goes “No hoof, no horse”, but one can’t have a horse without a back, neck or head either. Many of these abnormalities are hereditary, but some of them are so rare, they are too hard to study. Even though they can‘t all be cured, at least some can be treated, and it is possible to help alleviate the horse’s pain. It is important to study these abnormalities, not only for the sake of the horse’s, but also because some of these ailments can be found in humans also, and by studying horses, one can learn about human abnormalities. Hopefully in the near future veterinarians will be able to cure some of the more serious ailments, instead of euthanizing the horses.

Works Cited
Ensminger, M.E. Animal Science. Danville: The Interstate, 1977.
Equine Genetics and Selection Procedures. Tyler: Equine Research Inc., 1978.
Frank, E. R. Veterinary Surgery Notes. Minneapolis: Burgess, 1947
Hadden, Will. Horseman’s Veterinary Encyclopedia. Guilford: Lyons Press, 2005
White-Mullen, Anna. Judging Hunters and Hunter Seat Equitation. North Pomfret:
Trafalgar Square, 1993

My hero.

2010-04-02T19:47:00.000-07:00

7:46 PM - SwdPwnzDggr: back
7:46 PM - Captain Corpsie: YAY!
7:46 PM - SwdPwnzDggr: :D
7:46 PM - SwdPwnzDggr: /flex
7:46 PM - Captain Corpsie: hahahaha what?
7:46 PM - SwdPwnzDggr: idk i felt like i saved the day
7:46 PM - Captain Corpsie: LOL
7:46 PM - Captain Corpsie: are you a hero?
7:46 PM - Captain Corpsie: a super hero?
7:47 PM - Captain Corpsie: do you wear a cape and tights?
7:47 PM - SwdPwnzDggr: your hero
7:47 PM - Captain Corpsie: awww

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2010-04-01T18:21:00.000-07:00

A story.

2010-03-31T17:39:00.000-07:00

On March 30, Justin proposed to me. It was on the phone and there was no ring, but it was still amazing. He's asked me before. A few times before. I have always said yes. But I have always been underage. Well, on March 24th I turned 18. He was serious this time. He told me he was sick of not knowing what we are. He said that calling me his girlfriend wasn't strong enough, but he couldn't call me his fiancee if I wasn't. We were "engaged to be engaged" but not really engaged. But now, it was real (I asked if he was serious, he said yes and I asked if he was serious enough to change his facebook. A few moments later I got a relationship request from him. lol). He plans on asking my parents, then getting a ring, and doing the whole 'getting down on one knee' thing. I think that part is all for show. So that my parents will be happy and we will have an awesome story. But I don't think we need one. (Although, it will be pretty awesome to see how he will "propose" because I know he will pick a creative and unique way.) Our awesome story is that we knew from the beginning that we were going to spend the rest of our lives together. The first time he asked me to marry him was a few months after we started dating. We already knew that it was what we wanted. We have always planned on it. But now it's official. I didn't think it would happen until we both had steady jobs and I was at least half way through college. But I don't know. It will probably be some time, a couple years, until we actually get married. But that's ok. We have waited this long. We can wait a little bit longer. We've always known that it would happen. It's just so real now. He's really serious this time. We are both completely willing to just go down to Reno (maybe we can get married in Cupid's Chapel of Love just like my parents!). Haha, but Justin won't do that. We can always have a wedding later on, but my parents would be furious. Maybe we just won't tell them. We can get married now and have a wedding later just like Ethan and Lilah from Ctrl+Alt+Del. But it doesn't matter. Just being with him makes me happy. I know that he is mine forever, and he knows that I am his.

Hair!

2010-03-29T17:58:00.000-07:00

So last night my friend Sarah came over and we decided to curl our hair.
well, I decided to try pin curling her hair.

and then I took them out a few hours later. keep in mind we didn't use any hair spray, or any type of products. all we did was sprinkle her hair with a tiny bit of water.

it looked amazing!

then it was her turn to do mine. and she chose good ol' fashion hot curling iron. and this was the finished product. (I loved it)

If I could sum up what happens in my head

2010-03-28T10:23:00.000-07:00

with only one picture,
this would be it.

but I spent 3 days with Justin. and It's getting better.
It really is.
My mind was completely at ease the past 3 days that I have spent at his house.
I can't wait until I move in.

To Justin

2010-03-16T15:21:00.000-07:00

I hope that when we're older we have as much fun as we do now.
I hope we still joke around and you still tickle me and jump on me and we fight over my foam gun and sword.
I want you to still want to cuddle with me or go on walks.
I want to cook with you, and beat each other with pillows and sit outside and look at the sky.
I'm afraid that when we get older we will stop having fun.
I don't want us to stop goofing around.
I want you to still be the only person I can talk to about anything and I want you to always want to talk to me and tell me whats wrong.
I want to always be there for you and I want you to be there for me.
But I want you to want all this, and not just because I want it.

The rest of our lives

2010-03-14T17:19:00.000-07:00

Joh Keats

2010-03-08T06:21:00.000-08:00

To Fanny
I cry your mercy—pity—love!—aye, love!
Merciful love that tantalizes not,
One-thoughted, never-wandering, guileless love,
Unmasked, and being seen—without a blot!
O! let me have thee whole,—all—all—be mine!
That shape, that fairness, that sweet minor zest
Of love, your kiss,—those hands, those eyes divine,
That warm, white, lucent, million-pleasured breast,—
Yourself—your soul—in pity give me all,
Withhold no atom's atom or I die,
Or living on, perhaps, your wretched thrall,
Forget, in the mist of idle misery,
Life's purposes,—the palate of my mind
Losing its gust, and my ambition blind!